anon question: wow i’m sorry. i don’t know your whole situation but sorry. was he your first kinda potential love interest? like, what happened? sorry don’t mean to be nosey but I was rooting for you two… :-/
No, that title belongs to someone else who completely fucked my mindset for several years and left me hurt and confused more than this boy ever could.
It’s just unfortunate circumstances and bad timing, I suppose. Like, he can still be a great friend, but for now, I need to just be sad and alone for a little while.
‘Capes’ and ‘rape’. They just rhyme.
I think I’m going to rewatch this when I get home from the gym, because I really need a good laugh right now which I know the goth detectives can provide.
I feel really bad, because I know a lot of people wanted to know what happened.
Well, nothing happened. And nothing is ever going to happen. And that’s just how it is, and I’m going to have to move on with my life. I know a lot of you guys were rooting for us, so sorry to let you all down. That’s life, though. I’m trying to be as positive as I can about all of this, and I don’t want to bring it up and whine about it too much. I just went through all my blogs and deleted a lot of things related to it, and I don’t want to focus my blog on it anymore.
This personal blog has always been about trying to be positive. I went through my earlier posts today, and I want to be the girl I was before this entire mess (okay… “mess” is a bit harsh, it was good while it was good). Radical self love. That’s what I had focused on, and that is what I must continue focusing on. So here’s to what lies ahead for me.
Also: it really touches me that there are people who read this blog and are genuinely interested in me. You guys are wonderful, and I hope you all know that.
Fuck the US drinking age. Fuck it up the ass. With a large black dildo.
Totally made my day! So proud of her for not only going through Navy bootcamp, but enjoying it as well! That’s my bubbly, charismatic girl :)
Also heard a GREAT update from VJ and I couldn’t be happier for her and her guy.
My life might not be all that great lately, but seeing my friends happy makes me happy!
And now I’m meeting up with my other Mesa girl - Jourdan. I haven’t seen this girl since… since… August?! September?! Lord, I don’t even know. I can’t wait to see her. Friends I can just spill it all out to with no judgment. This is what I needed.
She’s one of my closest friends and I love her to bits and she’s the main reason why I am as confident and self-assured as I am today. I haven’t talked to her since the beginning of November because she went to bootcamp for the Navy, but she just texted me and it was so great just to see a “hello” from her.
I’ve been having a crappy week and I have just been keeping it all in for the most part. Just knowing that someone who gets me and knows me is finally in reach makes me so relieved and a little happy :)